Chapter '06: Bringing In Another Year
Wow...it's 2006 already. It feels like we were just bringing in '05 yesterday. 2005 was quite a year with many good times and bad. There are many moments I'll remember forever and other moments that I still wish to this day that I could forget. However, I can honestly say that over the year, I have grown much, and learned a LOT. 2005 started out very well, with a great new job and positive outlook on the men and women I dealt with, but of course, there were the trials and tribulations of life that occasionally made times hard. Life is life though, and I definitely had my share of lessons for the year.
While I typically try not to make resolutions (I mean, who REALLY keeps them?), I have given myself 10 things to remember for the '06 to help me become even stronger than I am now. First off, due to a minor relapse, my New Year's started at 12:00pm today instead of 12:00am (sigh...a girl got a little lonely and I just had to see him). But I will use that relapse as the first lesson of 2006 (which is to not put myself into bad situations that are never going to change) and I will use that lesson to continue to build strength in the future. I don't have any nasty habits such as smoking, and I already consider myself healthy, so this year's resolutions will take on more of an emotional approach--an approach that will better myself with family, friends, and men, and ME overall. While I know that some resolutions are most likely going to be broken, that's the beauty of it all--testing myself once more to see just how much stronger I can become:
1. NEVER SETTLE FOR LESS THAN WHAT I DESERVE-- Okay, I admit, this was last year's resolution. I started out doing well on this one, but kind of lost sight of it as the year went on. But I'm a fighter, and I'm not going to give up on this one so easily. I've had my share of heartaches in '05, and I've learned even more about life and men from those heartaches. Sooo, I'm going to turn those heartaches into positive energy and use it to help eliminate those losers who aren't willing to give me the love that I deserve.
2. DON'T LOOK FOR RELATIONSHIPS-- I actually saw this resolution in someone else's Blog but I was really feeling it and decided to make it one of my own. No longer am I going to date a guy and then immediately start wanting to make things permanent with him. This is a big problem of mine--I always want the security of knowing that the guy I'm talking to is mine and ONLY mine, not considering the fact that a relationship may not even be healthy for me and that person. I learned that from my last heartache...he was doing nothing to make me happy, but yet I wanted a relationship with him. From now on, I'm going to focus on friendships first, and enjoy the single life while I'm a part of it. I'm only 22...why rush a relationship? I should be dating, having fun, and building my database so that I know exactly what I want and don't want when it's time to settle.
3. NEVER PUT IN MORE EMOTION THAN THE OTHER IS WILLING TO PUT IN FOR ME-- I also saw this comment elsewhere and was really feeling it. There will be no more putting into a relationship than he is willing to put out for me. This is how feelings get hurt and tears get cried. This is also what causes one to look a little desperate and ummm, I'm far from that. If it's not 50/50, then I have to move on. No use in hitting rock bottom for someone that ain't thinking about me and don't give a damn about how I feel.
4. VALUE THE FRIENDSHIPS I HAVE, AND LEARN TO BE A BETTER FRIEND--This is going to be a hard one because no matter how much one tries to be a good friend to someone, you never know what kind of friend they are being to you. But like I said in one of my previous entries, it has to start somewhere, and this time around, it's going to start with me. From now on I'm going to be there for all of my friends when they need me, and hope that they do the same for me. I keep a very small number of friends now due to trust issues, but I'm going to learn to value the ones I already have and appreciate them more for what they've done for me. Good friends don't come often, so I'm going to make sure that I keep the ones that mean the most to me.
5. REALIZE THE VALUE OF FAMILY AND LET THEM BE MY FOCUS--So um yeah...my family is slightly dysfunctional and the relationship between all of them is a little tainted, although we ALL live in the same area... BUT, the least I can do is put in my part. I'm going to continue to spend time with my mom, sister, and nephew, but I need to cherish my grandmother, whom I haven't seen since March '05. I'm going to start calling her and going to see her on a regular basis. My father, whom also lives in the area--I'm going to start calling and going to see him as well. Just because the relationship between him and my mother didn't work out doesn't mean that him and I can't have a relationship. His other daughters are close to him, so why can't I be? Family is the core...the love that will ALWAYS be there. I need to start treating it as such.
6. FOCUS ON WHAT EMPOWERS ME-- From now on, I'm going to focus more on what makes me happy: My career goals, the money I make, reading, writing, photography and working out. I'm going to take those things a little more seriously and actually make it worth something in my life--maybe enroll in some photography classes on the side, work on a book, make some moves to get into the entertainment industry with my Marketing degree, etc. I refuse to let anyone take those little things away, because that is what makes me ME.
7. LET GO OF THE PAST AND FOCUS ON TODAY--The past is the past. Learn from the mistakes and MOVE ON. No longer will I dwell on what happened, what didn't happen, or what should have happened. Instead I'm going to take things as they come and focus on that day. Life is too short to dwell on something that can't be taken back. Forgive, forget, and keep it moving!
8. DON'T PUT MYSELF INTO BAD SITUATIONS THAT ARE NEVER GOING TO CHANGE--Ahhh, the first lesson of 2006. If something isn't going to work out, or isn't healthy for me mentally, emotionally, or physically, I'm not going to continue to put myself into that situation...especially pertaining to men. Can't change them...they can only change themselves. THERE WILL BE NO MORE DRAMA!
9. DON'T LET LIFE'S TRIALS AND TRIBULUATIONS GET THE BEST OF ME--No longer will I catch myself losing strength and crying over situations that I can't change. No longer will I let petty situations or people hurt me to the point where I am disliking myself, disliking others, or disliking life all together. I'm going to learn to take life for what it is, and use each situation as a stepping stone to better myself. I'm going to always keep a smile on my face, no matter what happens or what I'm going through...life is good.
10. START GOING BACK TO CHURCH AND GIVING GOD THE PRAISE HE DESERVES--Sad to say, this is going to be the hardest one since I haven't been to church in about three years (or maybe more). I really should have been there today... God has truly blessed me. He has blessed me with a loving family, a good job, a roof over my head, and many other things that make life liveable. I'm ashamed of myself for not having given him a little praise to say THANK YOU for it all. I know He has the power to take all good things away from me at any time, so I need to do what is right and get my butt back into church. When my mother asks me if I want to go, no longer will I say no because of feelings that I'm being hypocritical...instead, I will be happy to join her. It's about time I learn to cherish life and give thanks for everything I've been blessed with.
So readers, what kind of resolutions do you have for the '06? The best thing about sharing resolutions is that you can find someone that has the same new outlook as you and work together toward those goals. Then at the end of the year, you can look back and see just how much has been accomplished. So what will we be accomplishing this year?
Here we go again. Moving on to the next chapter in life...
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
While I typically try not to make resolutions (I mean, who REALLY keeps them?), I have given myself 10 things to remember for the '06 to help me become even stronger than I am now. First off, due to a minor relapse, my New Year's started at 12:00pm today instead of 12:00am (sigh...a girl got a little lonely and I just had to see him). But I will use that relapse as the first lesson of 2006 (which is to not put myself into bad situations that are never going to change) and I will use that lesson to continue to build strength in the future. I don't have any nasty habits such as smoking, and I already consider myself healthy, so this year's resolutions will take on more of an emotional approach--an approach that will better myself with family, friends, and men, and ME overall. While I know that some resolutions are most likely going to be broken, that's the beauty of it all--testing myself once more to see just how much stronger I can become:
1. NEVER SETTLE FOR LESS THAN WHAT I DESERVE-- Okay, I admit, this was last year's resolution. I started out doing well on this one, but kind of lost sight of it as the year went on. But I'm a fighter, and I'm not going to give up on this one so easily. I've had my share of heartaches in '05, and I've learned even more about life and men from those heartaches. Sooo, I'm going to turn those heartaches into positive energy and use it to help eliminate those losers who aren't willing to give me the love that I deserve.
2. DON'T LOOK FOR RELATIONSHIPS-- I actually saw this resolution in someone else's Blog but I was really feeling it and decided to make it one of my own. No longer am I going to date a guy and then immediately start wanting to make things permanent with him. This is a big problem of mine--I always want the security of knowing that the guy I'm talking to is mine and ONLY mine, not considering the fact that a relationship may not even be healthy for me and that person. I learned that from my last heartache...he was doing nothing to make me happy, but yet I wanted a relationship with him. From now on, I'm going to focus on friendships first, and enjoy the single life while I'm a part of it. I'm only 22...why rush a relationship? I should be dating, having fun, and building my database so that I know exactly what I want and don't want when it's time to settle.
3. NEVER PUT IN MORE EMOTION THAN THE OTHER IS WILLING TO PUT IN FOR ME-- I also saw this comment elsewhere and was really feeling it. There will be no more putting into a relationship than he is willing to put out for me. This is how feelings get hurt and tears get cried. This is also what causes one to look a little desperate and ummm, I'm far from that. If it's not 50/50, then I have to move on. No use in hitting rock bottom for someone that ain't thinking about me and don't give a damn about how I feel.
4. VALUE THE FRIENDSHIPS I HAVE, AND LEARN TO BE A BETTER FRIEND--This is going to be a hard one because no matter how much one tries to be a good friend to someone, you never know what kind of friend they are being to you. But like I said in one of my previous entries, it has to start somewhere, and this time around, it's going to start with me. From now on I'm going to be there for all of my friends when they need me, and hope that they do the same for me. I keep a very small number of friends now due to trust issues, but I'm going to learn to value the ones I already have and appreciate them more for what they've done for me. Good friends don't come often, so I'm going to make sure that I keep the ones that mean the most to me.
5. REALIZE THE VALUE OF FAMILY AND LET THEM BE MY FOCUS--So um yeah...my family is slightly dysfunctional and the relationship between all of them is a little tainted, although we ALL live in the same area... BUT, the least I can do is put in my part. I'm going to continue to spend time with my mom, sister, and nephew, but I need to cherish my grandmother, whom I haven't seen since March '05. I'm going to start calling her and going to see her on a regular basis. My father, whom also lives in the area--I'm going to start calling and going to see him as well. Just because the relationship between him and my mother didn't work out doesn't mean that him and I can't have a relationship. His other daughters are close to him, so why can't I be? Family is the core...the love that will ALWAYS be there. I need to start treating it as such.
6. FOCUS ON WHAT EMPOWERS ME-- From now on, I'm going to focus more on what makes me happy: My career goals, the money I make, reading, writing, photography and working out. I'm going to take those things a little more seriously and actually make it worth something in my life--maybe enroll in some photography classes on the side, work on a book, make some moves to get into the entertainment industry with my Marketing degree, etc. I refuse to let anyone take those little things away, because that is what makes me ME.
7. LET GO OF THE PAST AND FOCUS ON TODAY--The past is the past. Learn from the mistakes and MOVE ON. No longer will I dwell on what happened, what didn't happen, or what should have happened. Instead I'm going to take things as they come and focus on that day. Life is too short to dwell on something that can't be taken back. Forgive, forget, and keep it moving!
8. DON'T PUT MYSELF INTO BAD SITUATIONS THAT ARE NEVER GOING TO CHANGE--Ahhh, the first lesson of 2006. If something isn't going to work out, or isn't healthy for me mentally, emotionally, or physically, I'm not going to continue to put myself into that situation...especially pertaining to men. Can't change them...they can only change themselves. THERE WILL BE NO MORE DRAMA!
9. DON'T LET LIFE'S TRIALS AND TRIBULUATIONS GET THE BEST OF ME--No longer will I catch myself losing strength and crying over situations that I can't change. No longer will I let petty situations or people hurt me to the point where I am disliking myself, disliking others, or disliking life all together. I'm going to learn to take life for what it is, and use each situation as a stepping stone to better myself. I'm going to always keep a smile on my face, no matter what happens or what I'm going through...life is good.
10. START GOING BACK TO CHURCH AND GIVING GOD THE PRAISE HE DESERVES--Sad to say, this is going to be the hardest one since I haven't been to church in about three years (or maybe more). I really should have been there today... God has truly blessed me. He has blessed me with a loving family, a good job, a roof over my head, and many other things that make life liveable. I'm ashamed of myself for not having given him a little praise to say THANK YOU for it all. I know He has the power to take all good things away from me at any time, so I need to do what is right and get my butt back into church. When my mother asks me if I want to go, no longer will I say no because of feelings that I'm being hypocritical...instead, I will be happy to join her. It's about time I learn to cherish life and give thanks for everything I've been blessed with.
So readers, what kind of resolutions do you have for the '06? The best thing about sharing resolutions is that you can find someone that has the same new outlook as you and work together toward those goals. Then at the end of the year, you can look back and see just how much has been accomplished. So what will we be accomplishing this year?
Here we go again. Moving on to the next chapter in life...
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
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